Over the last few years, I have realised how much age does affect your hormones in a way I never imagined. I mean, my mother told me about it, my aunt warned me of its effects and some of my friends who are a little bit older than me reaffirmed the idea. I know women who get really angry around their time of the month, some who actually loose any libido they might have the rest of the time, and others who become very emotional. It is rather unbelievable how this whole hormones thing can affect you. But somehow, you just don't think it will happen to you.
Then, one morning, you wake up in tears without being able to find any logical reasons for it. You know it doesn't make any sense, but you can't help it. Nop! There is absolutely nothing you can do to stop it. Once that feeling takes over your mind and body, you're in for the ride, willing participant or not. Don't look for any sign that it's coming either, because there are none. Now, if you are extremely lucky, to top it all, you'll be desperate for sex, any sex, because you just need that rush to calm those cravings down! Oh, God is it fun... although, I'm not too sure who for though.
Now, the interesting thing with me is that, during that exciting time, I become this insane woman who displays signs of very irrational behaviour and extreme horniness. This does make for a very entertaining time for all people involved in my life at that moment. Seriously, refuse to engage in any bedroom activities with her and you are taking serious risks for your own health and well being. Alternatively, you could just take advantage of the situation - as some men have done in the past - but that's just come back to bite them in the butt. Have you ever tried to have a rational conversation with an emotionally challenged and sex charged woman... It ain't pretty!!! Now, all this would be fine if it wasn't as extreme as it can sometimes be. I know, I know, being French doesn't help either, but there's got to be a line somewhere, right?
Of course, during this last year, it has been more placid and restrained due to the fantastic and priceless little pills my doctor has me under... So I've mellowed down... a bit. Depends on the month really. The thing is, we're now considering weaning me of those yellow and green happy pills, for some incomprehensible reason. I personally enjoy them, but apparently, you're not meant to take them for ever, not sure why. I think it's got something to do with having to make it on your own. I sometimes wonder if the people saying those things get out there, because if they did, they'd want them everyday too.
What has been worrying me is the ripple effect this will have on my already charged emotional state of mind. Oh, I'm not worried about the whole horniness thing, it does have its advantages, but without my little helpers, I fear those feelings will come back to take over again, and I'm not sure I'm ready for that. The depression side of my tears, I can get, I can rationalise, somewhat, but this thing, this out of body experience where all is like a daze and none of it makes any sense, it's just plain scary. And not just for us.
Because, yes, there's the woman who's going through it, but there is also the people who cross her path during that time. People she might never see again, people she doesn't know, people she cares about and love, friends, family and co-workers. All of them are at risk too. So just remember this, if you see a woman passing by with her PMS zone sign up... Approach with caution!
I love the way you put feelings into words with such rationalism , makes me realise that I am not alone and that we all have problems in life , I wish I could express myself like you do . Thanks Carine !!!
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